I’MPERFECT: IT IS TIME TO HEAL THYSELF
Posted: 24 Dec 2021, 21:48
I remember it like it was yesterday, I had just gotten 4.5 stars out of 5 on my fourth grade English assignment and as soon as I saw glowing remarks from my teacher, the first person I wanted to show my paper to was my dad. I rushed home as soon as school ended hoping against hope that my dad was home instead of working at the parking lot or manning the parking lot booth like he did for 14+ hours a day.
To my great surprise, my father was actually home so approached him with my assignment in my right hand while smiling ear to ear. I handed dad my paper thinking he would congratulate me on a job well done. Finally, I thought, I would earn my father’s approval. To the contrary, he looked at what I wrote and the 4.5 stars on the front page and said “next time get 5 out of 5 stars”. Even though we only arrived in America the prior year and I did not know a hint of English before immigrating here, where I initially saw success, he only recognized “areas of improvement”.
My father’s reaction was not borne out of malice but out of love, he did not want me to rest on my laurels and instead wanted to push me to push myself. His father died shortly after he was born and mom gave him away to another family for fear of losing her last son after living through the horror of burying every son she gave birth to before they were old enough to walk. Between the trauma of growing up without a father and being raised by a family who did not share his blood, he harbored a deep sense of abandonment and felt like he had no support system. He would frequently say how much he would have accomplished if only he had people who believed in him and motivated him to do better...continued...
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To my great surprise, my father was actually home so approached him with my assignment in my right hand while smiling ear to ear. I handed dad my paper thinking he would congratulate me on a job well done. Finally, I thought, I would earn my father’s approval. To the contrary, he looked at what I wrote and the 4.5 stars on the front page and said “next time get 5 out of 5 stars”. Even though we only arrived in America the prior year and I did not know a hint of English before immigrating here, where I initially saw success, he only recognized “areas of improvement”.
My father’s reaction was not borne out of malice but out of love, he did not want me to rest on my laurels and instead wanted to push me to push myself. His father died shortly after he was born and mom gave him away to another family for fear of losing her last son after living through the horror of burying every son she gave birth to before they were old enough to walk. Between the trauma of growing up without a father and being raised by a family who did not share his blood, he harbored a deep sense of abandonment and felt like he had no support system. He would frequently say how much he would have accomplished if only he had people who believed in him and motivated him to do better...continued...
READ FULL ARTICLE AT: https://guzo2healing.io/imperfect-it-is ... l-thyself/